I feel like giving up but...

I know that I will just be giving in and not happy with myself if I do.  This past week has been a week from hell to me and I just want it over with.  I want to just cry and be hugged but now that's just the weakness in me that I am letting win and me making excuses.  I need to put the big girl panties on and tough it all out no matter how hard or extreme things will be at first.  I need to cook lean and healthy meals for my family instead of just letting us order out all the time.  I need to exercise more instead of playing games on Facebook like I do oh so well.  When I find myself sitting around for over an hour I need to make my butt get up and do some kind of physical activity. There are lots of small things I could do stretches...playing ball with my daughter in the hallway... sit-ups.  squats...wall squats...push ups...anything but instead what do I do continue to play the games on my computer.  I wish I had more friends who lived in the same town I do right now that would be exercise partners with me. I find all this stuff I want but I cant afford it so just got to live in my means which is so hard sometimes...I need to find a church to get myself into its been so hard since I moved down here.  Now I find myself making one more excuse for it since my car has broke down.  As soon as I get my car fixed or I get a new car I know I need to get back in with God.  I need to start reading my bible every morning before I get going on my day too much.  I need to make myself wake up read my bible, exercise, eat breakfast and then wake my daughter up and get her breakfast going and then do some teaching with her.  Maybe after doing some teaching bundle both of us up and go on a walk in our apartment complex.  Then come home eat lunch and put on a movie for her then do some craft time with her then go check the mail.  Then do a snack then give her some downtime and at that point give me a little down time and then fix dinner.  It will be a hard process but I am sure if I  push myself I can start doing it and life will run a little smoother for us.  If you are a friend of mine and want to help encourage me or hold me responsible please let me know what areas you want to help me with and I will try to keep in touch with you just know that if you are holding me responsible I want to hold you responsible too...Well time to go for now.



Well I made it almost all the way...

through my first whole week...Usually by now I have stopped drinking the shakes for one reason or another this time I haven't I just got to keep pushing on.  My count was a little lower then what I was expecting but jsut means I need to push myself harder and add more fluids and take a closer count on my calories I am not sure I am getting enough of them in.  I am going to measure again on the 15 just to see the results and then start measuring once a month on the inches part I may still weight myself every week.  I cant wait to see my final results.  I thought I had been feeling bloated and my measurement results from today proved it. my neck is 14.5 my upper arm is 13 my lower arm is 10.  My full bust is 39 my underbust is 33.5 my high waist is 34 my natural waist is 38.5 my hip is 42 my thighs are 24 and my calves are 15.5  My weight was 164.2 lbs.  Time to keep going on.  Well its bedtime so I can get up and work out in the morning.  Night all.

I made it thru the first..

I made it thru almost my first week.. It was tough I got sick one day so couldn't keep anything down.  I dont have measurements yet since I lost my tape measure.  I plan on going later on today to get one and take measurements.  I also plan on starting to push myself more physically.  I feel I can be doing more in that aspect to help me lose more pounds.  I need to add more and push myself each day.  I have really been slacking in this area but I know it will be better soon.  Well got I guess I better be headed to bed for the night.


Happy New Years.

Well I am finally done running for the holidays. I am so glad to be back home and to start my new schedules.  I am going to be doing my measurements once I get my little girl to sleep today.  I have to also write down my schedule for the week of meals and such.  I am exhausted from the holidays but I know I am going to better not only my life but the life my family has.  My goals for this week is to stick to two shakes a day and a snack in between meals.  I also plan on getting up every morning to exercise at about 5am.  I then plan on doing a little cleaning until my girl wakes up and then do more activities with her and get her ready for  pre-school.  I need to get a few more things one of those being a scale.  Well I need to get going putting my little one to bed in just over an hour.