Version 11.07.10.PM

So today I did even more thinking. 

My next few weeks are going to be very difficult...

I am going to change my sleep schedule. the reason behind this is I need to start getting up earlier to eat, to actually spend alittle time takign care of my face including adding basic makeup so i look more professional at work, and to exercise more.  This will mean I will be going to bed a little earlier each night. 

I am also going to work on exercising more.  It is really hard for me to want to do becuase I ahte to exercise in front of people even my parents but I need to just get over it and do it.  It will help me out I have noticed since I havent exercised as much lately I am getting more stress in general.  I also had more energy when I was exercising. 

I also need to start taking vitamins everyday and make sure I take them. 

The worse part/best part of it is I need to focus when on if I really will get along with the guy in a relationship for logner then a year or two.  That is the worse part.  It is hard to do.  I am so use to giving up everythign I watn for the guy to make it work but in the end it makes it worse for me becuase I dont get anything out of it and the guy thinks im goign to cave in all the time from then on.  So I set my own self up for failure. that is the worse part ofr the longest time I have faught for guys who in the end I know we never would have got along with but I didnt want to be alone.This will be the toughest thing to do but it needs to be done.

Time to finish getting ready for bed.  Got to get up in the morning early and start my new routine.  We will see how it goes.  I plan to update tomorrow.


pegt45 said...

you can do whatever you set your mind to do! Keep the positive thoughts going :)