So I have been working on keeping my room cleaned and have succeed. I even had a chance to clean it up a little bit more today which is nice. I got all the clothes I can fit put in my closet and all the ones that when I am honest with myself just don't fit put away. I realized the outfits I really want to wear have been put up in the attic this whole year pretty much. I have even been working with my daughter on a better night time schedule for her. I found its easier for me but its been rough on her as shes not use to it but hopefully within a week or so she will get the hang of it. It has started to cool off here so we have been keeping the windows open more and it feels so nice and reminds me of camping.
After doing research on the two diet ideas I like the most the carb cycling and then slim fast what I think I may do is start with Slim-fast for a month to get use to it all again then go to the carb cycling after I am use to a better routine of eating and such. I put in applications just waiting to hear back form places but yet each time I don't hear back I feel a little more down like I am unworthy.
I have created a pouts to lose vase and a pounds lost vase. I have some bigger stones which are for a single pound and then lots of smaller ones which I am using as half pounds. I would like to get down to 115 if possible but not sure that is possible but I would be happy with between 120-130. I know some of it is up to me and how hard I work on it.
I plan on taking pictures later on today of what my body looks like and will post them that is what is going to be embarrassing if I thought previous pictures were bad these will be the worst ones yet. I have got to do it though I keep hearing my grandma voices telling me i need to lose a few pounds from last year and I don't want to dissapoint her when I see her this holiday season. I have got to get a little bit of this weight off even if I am down to just 140 that would be better then I was last time. I am at my heaviest of all time right now. If you are my friends I know you all want to support me and make me feel good about myself help me by telling me that I can lose the weight. Well time to go get my other chores done today. Have a good day and I will post pictures either later on tonight or tomorrow morning.
Yes I am writing this post to say everything I have tried to do lately I have failed at besides my walk with God. I am not completely happy with it but it has made me think about some ways I have been doing things and ways I can work on trying to be happy again.
My main problem...I havent tried. I keep making excuse after excuse as to why I cant do something today and put it off for tomorrow.
Solution to this: Getting more people to hold me accountable and responsible for my actions. This isnt just for losing weight but saving money...looking for a better job...being a better mother to my daughter...being a better daughter to my parents.
Action steps to take this week:
So I finally got over having a cold. I did cut my hair. Let see what else has been going on my daughters dad got married without really giving my daughter any warning so was dealing with a little bit of changes from her but I have made it through. I plan on starting the INSANITY workout program. I calculated and they want me to get in at least 1500 calories so I will be good there just adding in working out 6 out of 7 days. Let see what else is going on. That is about it. I have started making my bed every morning and taking medicine each night and it makes me feel a lot better then I had been. Well have a good evening and I will post more again soon.
Marcey
Since today is my birthday and I sit here having gained more weight. I want to work towards a goal of being a healthier me by the time I turn 29. I am going to try and post every day for the next 365 days. Sometimes pictures of my success and sometimes pictures of my failures... I know it will be a long struggle but one that will be amazing if I can truly working on it.
Well it has been a while since i have posted on here. I am about to start a new 90 day challenge and am hoping I can stick with this one. I will be doing a couch to 5K program aka c25k. I have set a goal to run a 5k called Color Me Rad in Indy at the end of the challenge on Sept 9, 2012. I plan on at least walking some every day and also running or starting to run at least 3 times a week. I have some friends who are willing to do the walking with me. I also have some friends who said they would help me train for the 5k. I know this is not something people who know me would imagine me doing as I hated to run in school. I was the one who would walk but never really run.
I am also going to start for the first 21 days a no junk food challenge. I am going to cut out all fully loaded sodas and drinks. I am going to drink water, energy drinks with zero calories, diet green tea and such that are low in calories. It also calls for me to cut out things such as Peanut Butter, Cookies, Snack Cakes, Potato Chips, White Bread. This is going to be difficult for me but I am going to try and stick as close to it as I can because I know that will be better for me as I am still trying to lose weight.
I have had stress lately but I am trying to work on getting rid of the stress. I know most of you think that is impossible but I plan on doing it by trusting that God will take care of the things I can't and through it all he will be there to help me.
May God Bless You All,
Marcey
It is hard to believe that it is almost May that is five months into the year already. I can be honest and say I haven't been too focused on losing weight and getting myself healthy. That has been weighing on me more and more every day. So what can I do to help get things better for me and such. I need to make small plans for week by week vs over 90 days. So I am going to work on my goals and schedule to go week by week. It may be rough but I think it will be better for me.
I have started to look for a job again which is tough on me because i hate being rejected but I know things will be better in the end for me by me not getting these certain jobs. I am trying to keep myself more active with life sometimes that is hard but I know God will protect me and help me with it all.
